我事奉的年日，其實也有很多掙扎、翻騰，與神討價還價的時刻﹔跌過傷過也低沉過，多少次根本無法算清楚。上帝從來不會立刻回應我，好像叮囑我﹕「你自己先好好想清楚﹗」幸好我發牢騷通常都不會超過一星期，聖靈也祝福我，讓我有很強的自癒能力，不經不覺我便行到今天。
記得一次為了教導一位少年人，他的家長對我說了難聽的話。當時我實在有點「火」，因為就算是我受薪的工作也不需要受這些閒氣﹔事奉只是「義務」，為何我要如此委屈自己？天父沉默的聆聽了數個晚上後，才開口與我對談。
G﹕你放下自己了沒有？
g﹕放下什麼？G﹕你的所有。
g﹕那包括什麼？
G﹕你的驕傲，你的自尊和身段，你的想法、你的堅持，一切一切。
g﹕那事奉是要我沒有自己了嗎？一切都放下，那我究竟還剩下什麼？
G﹕除了我以外，你會一無所有。
g﹕如果我不放下這些呢？我不也是在服侍嗎？
G﹕是的，不過你服侍的不是我，而是你自己。
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近道矣…
I have also noticed that I have not giving up myself for God. This can be seen easily by me always postponing the fact that I needed to have my daily bread. Everytime I saw the bible, I have promised to God to take a look. "Just a little part of a chapter is fine" I said to myself, but promise is not a promise at all. I have betrayed God for many times and this has not improved until one time I heard God reminded me. God has never given up and would never have the heart for revenge. God told me as a true Christian, is not just being a Christian on Sunday during the church event,but should be anytime, any moment; or else it would be like a duty to fulfill more than a true heart to God. From that day, I have noticed I need a change and I know that it is going to be difficult, but I am sure there is nothing more important than holding on to God's hands because I believe him and I love him.
KC﹕謝謝你，常常在我身邊激勵我。
KAREN﹕Nothing is too difficult to accomplish as long as we trust our Lord Jesus. We love Him not because we know love, but that He loves us first.
So glad that you are serious with your spiritual pursuit, and very much honored to have your comment =) Keep up!
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